Its not always rainbows & butterflies<3

beantown23balla @ 2005-11-16T21:41:00

2005-11-17T02:43:51Z

a lot has changed since the last time i updated this thing..
i'm no longer in the produce dept..moved onto florist! it's a good time :)

i got back from DC like 2 wks ago & i had the time of my life. i met some of the most amazing people that i hope to stay friends with for the rest of my life. i learned a lot & it was a relief to be away from boston, school, dance, people, everything in general! && i miss my roomies!

shit went down & my birthday absolutely sucked but my FRIENDS made it a good time. in the past month or so i've realized who i can trust & who i shouldn't even bother wasting my time on anymore. its a lost cause..but hey, i guess its better to learn now.

schools pretty stressful & this year(as far as academics & classes) is prob the hardest year so far but only 7 more mths till summer!

tues morning i woke up at like 5am & had really bad pains in my back ..i ended up going to the hospital & after tests & drinking the grossest stuff in the world they found out it was kidney stones. :/ bummer ..so i went to another hosp to see a specialist & he said that in about 2 wks i'll go in for a procedure that should break up the stones..lets hope it works! but until then i got lots of drugs :)

i don't really have anything interesting to say & i doubt anyone even reads this thing so i'm done.
Peace up Atown down ♥

I'M BACK!!!!

2005-09-20T21:49:47Z

Holy shittt. so it's been about 3 months & i randomly got a sudden urge to update?

i don't really have much to write about...school started & it sucks, more than usual. if it were up to me i would be at a different school by now but since the p units are too anal to think otherwise, i guess i have no choice. can i just say how much i wish i was in college...i can't wait to graduate!

on a happy note...my bestest friend moved back to boston. i guess we could just call her stay in california a lil summer vaca plus a couple extra days ;) 3 months felt like an eternity & i'm very happy to have her home.

dance started up again, obviously...haha cuz when do we ever stop? i'm on 3 teams this year, so it shouldn't be too bad.. then again, i'm not taking any normal classes, just dance teams.( a lil more demanding) but on the plus side my regular 2 teams are on ONE night now(thurs.) & then the team i just added, which is my sisters is fridays.

work is okay...the drama level has for the most part been at a minimum. as far as i know. i switched departments..produce is much better. it has its ups & downs but i enjoy it more than anywhere else. hah since i spend half my time in the florist anyway! (shutup, mai) the good thing about produce is i can keep my distance from all the morons that thrive on stupid gossip, it was getting ridiculous.

i miss a lot of people right now..one person in particular & i wish things weren't the way they are but hopefully things will change for the better soon. i care too much to just give up. so we'll see..

hmm wat else...my birthdays in less than a month. october 15th- mark it on ur calendars kiddoss! ohhh yess, how could i forget. i had the worst morning today. i got a ticket..my car almost got towed cuz the guy that lives behind my school is an absolute psycho path...my glasses broke & then i failed 2 quizzes. all one after another. buttt i got a 100 on my psych quiz so my day progressively got better.

i guess everyone pretty much ditched LJ for myspace..watever. this is a really pointless update but i figured i had to start somewhere...i'm gunna go read for history or eat..either way it's something productive. :) peaceee

beantown23balla @ 2005-06-18T00:43:00

2005-06-18T04:46:22Z

bought the BSB cd.. a few days late but better late than never!

ohhh emm geee it is AMAZING<3 im obsessedddd

go buy it.

beantown23balla @ 2005-06-10T23:22:00

2005-06-11T03:22:34Z

its over. for the summer atleast..sucks that come sept. it wont be the same people

i lost one of my best friends..i feel so empty, i dont kno wat im supposed to do.

beantown23balla @ 2005-05-27T15:44:00

2005-05-27T20:22:16Z

IM ALIVE!

hard to believe this yrs pretty much over. all thats left is finals & then summer here i come! dont get me wrong..ive been psyched for summer since the first wk of skewl but every yr it becomes harder & harder to let go of ppl i kno wont be comin back the followin fall. the past 2..maybe 3 yrs, have been the hardest & especially this yr. everytime i think of how different its gunna be next yr, i get upset..so i try really hard to jus not think of it but hey its life & i gotta face it sumtime so im tryin to make it so theres less of a ballfest on the last day- doubt it will be that way tho. between teachers leavin, ones im close to..others not so much but its still a change, teachers havin babies(that was a shocker in itself), seniors leavin, & a few of my best friends leavin..im not a fan of change. :/

i found out tuday that it was especially hard to sit through the awards ceremony, cuz i mean this is the senior class, we as 6th graders, started out wit & its hard to believe they wont be comin back..but i dont wanna start cryin again so im gunna end this!

thanks to everyone who made this yr worthwhile & made me smile even wen i didnt wanna..u truly helped me grow & for that i thank u<3 (:
my class- i love u ladies tremendously<3

beantown23balla @ 2005-05-13T12:40:00

2005-05-13T16:42:33Z

I FINALLY GOT MY LICENSE!
now i can legally do wat ive been doin forever. (:

beantown23balla @ 2005-05-10T19:13:00

2005-05-10T23:20:52Z

im done. for real this time

on another note mr. butler ammuses me to no end. ive come to realize, as bad as my day gets he can always make me smile.

"ya know, whenever i talk to you.. i feel like im stoned."

"a thesis; i suck."
"a antithesis; no, i dont."
"and a synthesis; okay we both suck."

"cause you cant sell heroine in a day care center."

"you dont want to be a half ass brain surgeon. you can be a half ass baker, or a half ass plumber & no ones gunna get hurt."

ahh, if only everyone could be more like him. okay, so by readin this u prob think im in love w/ him..hah cuz i would think that, but really i am jus highly amused by his humor. maybe a lil too much, but i dont think so..

I need u like water..like breath...like rain

2005-04-27T15:15:01Z

In computer & reenies not here so i figured id update cuz im bored. so its back to skewl mode now & i cant tell u how excited i am for summer!

mon--i dread mondays but it kinda flew by. tues was a long day, which i found strange..had practice & i dont really remember nethin else except that i had a costume fitting but my costume wasnt even there so now its on thurs..

tues--skewl was awful. then game against waring & we losttt but lets not even talk about that..hmm then came back to WW for this speaker Mary Beth Cahill; campaign manager for Sen. John Kerry..Clinton..& a few other political ppl. all & all it was really interestin. that ended around 815 so then i went to pay so i could make my appt for my license & then headed home..ate dinner..then watched the sox game, which turned out to be a disaster. BUT lenny dinardo pitched the last inning & i was WAY excited, i cant even explain how happy i was. even tho i really dont think he was ready, esp. for a game like that wen we're down 3 runs..last inning..i dunno, it jus wasnt the game for him.

tuday hopefully if it keeps rainin we'll have a whiteboard practice cuz even if it stops rainin its gunna be gross & muddy out...then the flip side is we have a game tomorro against landmark which a really aggressive team & i think we need the practice.

tomorro i have an AWAY game & of course it has to be at 4 & in east africa, so we're bound to hit traffic on the way back & i have dance at 7..i need to run into work & get my check blah blah blah..

i have nothin else to write about so i guess ill go ask leighty if practice is still on cuz i dont feel the need to do computer work...lunch in 40 minutessssss yoo

beantown23balla @ 2005-04-21T22:13:00

2005-04-22T02:18:11Z

i miss my friends<3 come home ):

drove around all day..picked up meg.. got my check & picked up food for my mum..then went to wendys..came back to my house..picked up sa..went to the mall..came back to my house then back to the mall & UNOS. sweeeet nite.

this vaca is gettin old real fast.

i miss him ..but i shouldn't & it kills me..

im alive, in case yall were wonderin!

2005-04-18T23:33:24Z

interestin past couple of days..went into boston & ate at the cheesecake factory after work on sat..then hung around here wit a few kewl kidss yesterday & tuday..hit up wendys, u kno how it is.

mdawgs plane leaves for cali in 30 min..reenies already in cali..saras in fl..
i feel like im the only one spendin my vaca in mass..watever ill make it fun. its supposed to be nice tomorro & i think im hittin up the beach w/ sum fools..call if u want in ;)

off to dance..so much for vacation :/
peace up atown down.

i've tried to go on like i never knew u

2005-04-12T15:10:43Z

got ready for dance last nite & then my mum called me in cuz i felt horrendous.

went to sleep at like 10:15 last nite & i woke up almost every hour, tossin & turnin till about 6. then my dad asked how i was feelin around 7 & asked if i was goin to skewl & i sed no.

i have a fever, the chills, MAJOR congestion- so much that my back hurts from coughin :/ & a bad headache..i wanna be better for my game tomorro (:

pretty sure im on about 3 different meds..this nasty cough syrup & my inhaler..

i havent missed skewl in 3 yrs, this feels so weird to be home but everyone needs a break once in a while rite? ughh jdamons book signing is tuday & im obviously gunna miss that! grosss

sittin here is makin me feel worse so later fools<3

beantown23balla @ 2005-04-07T15:52:00

2005-04-07T20:14:58Z

went to the doctors & turns out they DIDN'T have to take my blood, i was so pumped!

BUTgot madd work to do tunite & tons of make up work but since report cards come out tomorro i suppose doin that make up work would be entirely pointless,rite? yess. pickin up my check later..droppin prescriptions off at CVS then dancee! hopefully ill get a decent amt of sleep tunite cuz i need it. badlyyy

play tunite but i have to miss it cuz i have dance :/ & fri i have rehearsal for competition 7-8:30 so i cant see it then either..& most likely wont be there sat nite either so this will be the first year i wont see a spring play! weiird. but good luck to the cast&crew<3
such a busy weekend & im not lookin forward to it. fri i was planin on goin to see fever pitch cuz ive only been waitin FOREVER to see it. but now i cant & then sat i have the STARBOUND COMPETITION in Norwood till around 5pm & then im goin to BU for the lax game vs. U. of Maryland..dinner first wit leighty&ruff i think (: then most likely work sun since they hateee me

finished the Ellen Degeneres book tuday...oh man does she make me smile! its called the funny thing is... so go buy it! she also has another book, which is first one & its called my point... and i do have one i find her incredibly hilarious in general, so maybe its jus me. but i could read those books OVER & OVER

i dont feel like writin anythin else, comment if u actually read this. or not

<33kaytee

EFF THIS POINTLESS ENGLISH PAPER

2005-04-03T20:09:01Z

FIRST GAME OF THE SEASON TUNITE. soo pumped!! u all best watch it or else we're not friends. 8:05,k? k peace.

do u wanna run away together?
i would say it was ur best line ever
too bad i fell for it. xo

in this world, theres real & make believe..this seems real to me

2005-03-27T02:50:26Z

kim & i jus ordered food so while i wait for that to come i figured id update!

in the middle of doin 1003498 yrs worth of laundry. cuz i put it off for soo long. ive also come to the conclusion that i have SOO much clothes, & half of them still have tags. im such a waste.

worked yesterday 3-8:30 & it was awful. came home & went to mdawgs for a few & ate cookie dough. tuday i had a dentist appt at 8..came home & passed out till i was woken up at 11:30 frum my love. then worked 2:30-8:30..it was an interestin day to say the least.

tomorros easter! dinner at the country club in winchester wit the fam..i was hopin for a home cooked meal but watever. country clubs are totally not my style but i suppose bein around preppy-lil-polo wearin-golf playin-spoiled-brats isn't so bad after all? i get food, so thats all that counts.

kay well the delivery guy jus called twice sayin he couldnt find my house so i need to go find him or sumthin..

peaces xox.
i love you<3

eat great, even late

2005-03-20T03:17:51Z

Well well well...quick update cuz im at Mdawgs casa

yea listenin to techno, gross

so i met my babe tuday before work then worked till 6..mdawg&mike picked me up & we went to wendys..then sat in the parkin lot & ate then back to mdawgs. mike left & we waited for jessi to get huurr. we cam whored..ate cake..wore cake..went to DQ..cam whored sum more at the beach..rolled in the snow & gott WETT ;) we jus got in, & im really tireddd.

no parade for me tomorro..recordin studio 12-4 :( then ccd'ing it up wit my slut mdawg. well, im endin this shizz..so comment or not. i honestly dont care either way

i ♥ him. (hha mdawg did that..wat a sillyface)

Ps. i have no friends & i spent the majority of my nite playin patty cake & pretend runnin on treadmill(yea it wasnt on) wit a 2 yr old. be jealous

Pps. "watd he put a paper bag over her head?" hah dont u wish u knew wat that was about

beantown23balla @ 2005-03-14T13:12:00

2005-03-14T18:38:19Z

Im supposed to be doin my work rite now but i decided against it..

yesterday i had to wake up at the crack of dawn to meet mdawg & get ready for sum st. patricks day breakfast, only to find out that wen i got there i wasnt gettin out at 10 like i thot i would...nope instead we had to stay for the 10:30 mass, so a bunch of us left & went to dunkies..went back to the skewl & i left around 12:30, got food & hung out there then i had dance frum 3-5 then 5-7:30 & i was exausted..went home & watched the celtics game & a full house special on E true hollywood story!! it was soo good..i talked to my love<3 then went to bed

worked a lot this weekend..didnt do any homework except read a lil & it felt good to jus have a break frum skewl related stuff. i got progress reports on fri & i got 2 reports out of 6 classes & the 2 that i got im not even failin in. i have a 72 in spanish cuz of sum stupid test & then a 75 in chem cuz the midterm brought me down like whoah. but its a hard class & im actually makin an attempt to do the work & do well so everyone can jus get off my back.

lax started & we're gunna have a wicked good season! miss leighty asked me how i would feel if she moved me frum left attack to center but thats a big change so i dunno ..cuts were made fri but im not sure who got cut yet..i thot i had practice tuday but i dont! instead i have dance for the play frum 3-5 but im not goin cuz 1. i dont wanna go & 2. i have a dance competition that weekend neway & i cant guarentee that i wont have to compete the same nite as the play, so watever they'll jus have to do wit out me!

goin out wit meaks & daner tuday so they can look for prom dresses & stufff..then hopefully meetin up wit maime since shes home on break & then draggin her to dance wit me tunite so she can watch it!

jus for reen since shes next to me & all..the boy situation is a lil sticky but we both have made it clear how we feel about eachother & hes perfect, im jus not gettin too attached. thats it reen, im not writin nemore!

peace out yall

Ps. 19 days till dee&reenies bash! soo pumped :)

tell me u love me

2005-03-06T06:07:36Z

Quick update since livejournal sucks soooo bad & jus deleted my post.

red sox won last nite :) cheaaaa boy

drama sucks.

lax starts mon, Lord knos how im gunna handle work too since they seem to think im a slave & have no life

work tuday was easy :) i originally wrote funny stuff that i kno u all would enjoy but im way too lazy to write it again. fuck u livejournal. die.

psh wtf is this..why the hell does porn keep poppin up on my screen. NO THANK YOU!

play for CCD tomorro at FBA...bus leaves at 1 & we dont get back till 5..i have to miss dance :( && i have TONS of hw..even more than last wk. & after tutorin tunite i have even more..it never ends. EVER. since all the snow days etc. they took away our all skewl field trip; which i thoroughly enjoyed..we would have had the day off next mon but not nemore.this snow is gettin ridiculous, to the point where im fed up. it needs to stop snowin, fo serioussss.

i cant stop thinkin about him. all day, every day..hes on my mind. hes so amazing. ive never met a person that could make me laugh so much in a day..he gives me butterflies, but in such a good way. i beam wit smiles wen i see him ..we jus look into eachothers eyes & i cant even explain the feeling, but hes wonderful<3

Brandi Shea--i miss u terribly dear<3

more sex & the city then bed!!
nite muffins<33

hello there kiddos..

2005-02-28T17:49:11Z

I love Shereen Mohammadi more than life itself

Lara Butromowicz too ;) psh, neither of them have middle names. loserfaces.

guesss wat? that damn essay i worked my ass off durin vaca on pretty much jus got thrown down the toilet last period. okay so not really, but i have to rewrite a lot of it & that makes me prettty upset. jkghdfjghfjghkjfhjkd;r i hate her.

THE END.

PS. Shereen doesnt wanna go to math, jus thought id tell u guys..

random post ; enjoy loveys

2005-02-27T06:35:41Z

Almost done wit my paper for english...i need one more quote for my last paragraph & im done!! ..then for chem i only need to write 2 more pages! :) which ill prob do tomorro cuz im one tired grl.

i had work tuday ..ate dinner at my cuzins ..then went back to work to pick up my cassie & bring her home.

i saw him<3 tunite, that made me happy!

good nite tunite overall, specially since im pretty much done wit this paper! man i love myself.

tho im missin a few people rite now..i miss how things use to be, but i guess its all a part of life ..they've moved on, so shouldnt i? it jus doesnt seem rite..

tomorro i need to
--do my laundry!!
--finish my chem paper&english paper
--go to church&ccd
--dinner at my cuzins again
--possibly go to work to visit my favs!
--find out wen all my competitions are..if neone wants to fill me in on that,id love u forever!

work tues & wed & fri & sat :/ thankfully all but wed im workin wit kick ass people!

PS//i have this wicked painful canker in my mouth. i have herpes :x i kno it.

beantown23balla @ 2005-02-25T16:59:00

2005-02-25T22:10:22Z

so i didn't quite succeed w. the whole "i dont wanna leave all my work till the last min theory" but i'll have u kno i attempted it every single nite this wk! i worked a lil on my essay..jus a few more paragraphs & i worked on stuff for chem but then i gave up & i read one page of the Odyssey & put it down. im jus not into books like that. ehh, watevv ill find sum way to deal.

i havent done much this vaca--but to tell u the truth i kinda liked it--except sleep late(which i thoroughly enjoyed)...work...hung out wit meg&nys yesterday, shot sum pool & i went home..goin to see the wedding date tunite..ill let u kno how that goes!

back to the daily drama in less then 3 days..yayy!! & im totally gunna kick sum ass this term in ALL my classes, wat now?

i'll leave u w/ this...i knew we were always destined to be together :p goshh they're hottt
<3 bye loveyys

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i feel so small ; i guess i need u baby<3

2005-02-22T02:40:29Z

I refuse to leave all my work till the last minute this vaca..so im gunna try to do it early this wk! work tomorro, wed, & sat :\
--report for pickel
--Macbeth paper for swanson
--2 books of the Odyssey
theres more, but i cant remember at the moment

dinner at the hardrock w. my dad & sister tunite ..since i haven't seen her in a month, it was nice.

as of now im cleanin out my filin cabinets that contain stuff i've had since kindergarten in them..boy was i a smart cookie wen i was lil..wat the hell happened? i'll tell u. i got lazy & i really need buckle down or else i'm goin to be a slum on the street for the rest of my life & that depresses me a real lot wen i think about it. which reminds me..i have no idea how im gunna do work&lax&homework&dance all at the same time for the next 4 mths, i get a headache jus thinkin about it.. any ideas?

pssh. does anyone remember POLLY POCKETS?? cuz i jus found one. those things were bomb .. i wish i was 5 again

later days<3

im procrastinatin..so while im at it, heres an update!

2005-02-17T00:55:49Z

DO IT NOW!
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 4 questions. Any 4, no matter how personal, dirty, private, or random. I have to answer them honestly. In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal and you have to answer the questions that are asked to you. and if you DO NOT have a livejournal leave your name.

hi, im kewl & i have no life. so heres one of those quiz things

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it's not okay..but we're alrite

2005-02-15T03:01:09Z

why are guys so dense?? honestly. ughh jus wen u think they might be growin up, u realize they're all the same.

in other news; i find it kind of ironic that the statue that use to be displayed in our skewl (for as long as i can remember) smashed to ittsie bittsie pieces tuday. theres too much irony in the fact that Venus the goddess of LOVE dies on VALENTINES DAY

PEACE OUT VENUS .1909-2005. U WERE A GOOD STATUE:\

im incredibly overrtired & i shud have spent my day off doin work, but i didnt. cuz i suck major. i need sleep...im laughin at things that arent even remotely funny & wow good nite...

Valentines Day is jus another holiday used to support companies while u spend all ur money on meaningless cards/roses/chocolates/etc. when a simple "i love u" would do jus fine. & it would actually mean somethin knowin the phrase wasn't blaintenly stolen off a Hallmark card. so im bitter. who cares

wat a nitee

2005-02-13T17:55:55Z

So semi last nite. was interestin...but im REALLY happy that everyone worked together for the most part & it got done. it seemed like everyone really enjoyed themselves..we made $$..& it was a good nite! the end was a lil rocky but things happen, that are out of our control but the rest of the nite was a success & that's all that counts!

after semi a bunch of us cleaned & stuff..put the gym back in order & then a crew of us headed to bickfords. lets see, it was me bobby diana que meg roz kelly lybs jasmin shigun(sp?) cassie..i think that was it..then meg m was there wit a few of her friends..we ate & got home around 12:45...chilled around then meg & lybs then kelly went to pass out in my sisters room & cass&i passed out in mine..meg&lybs left early..then cassie...& kelly jus left. i need to get a lot of work done..i was supposed to work tuday & tomorro but im not cuz i cant so they can kissss it...kind of ironic how the 2 teachers that kno we had a busssy weekend give us the mostt hw...i have dance really soon so i need to go accomplish sumthin, tho i dont think i can dance tuday since i CANT walk at ALL!! :/ well, comment time lovees<3

if u wanna see pics ill send em to u seein as tho i have no idea how to post them on this thing..

if everyone could control the gossip,etc of wat happened at the end..i think mon will be a much better day & really appreciated..so try ur best!

[edit] until i figure out how to put pics on this thing check out pics on Lybs page... __noty0urstar

beantown23balla @ 2005-02-07T16:12:00

2005-02-07T22:36:37Z

[+]Patriots won the superbowl..not really a big deal nemore..sorta old news but hey we kicked sum eagle ass so im happy.

[-]one of my best friends is movin to fuckin california & i jus found out tuday & her dad decides to be a major douche & not wait till the end of the year but instead leave in 2 wks! but the best part is ..the house wont even be ready by then so they're livin in a hotel..heres an idea: how about u wait until the house is ready to leave boston!? asss. im gunna miss her soo much. first natalie now her..whos next?

[-]failed 2 exams so far..

[-]report cards come out fri

[+/-]semi is saturday & about 6 people bought tickets so BUY THEM before there isnt a semi at all!

[-]soo much work to do before tomorro, yet i had a whole week off to do it & never did.

sweet the negative out weighs the positive. life sucks. well, i need to go get ready for dance so..byeee
<3 Patrizle